Sunday, November 3, 2013

Today I feel . . .

Remember, one of the last times I posted, I said my life was less angsty these days?  Yeah, I lied.  I'm really feeling like I need to focus more on all the things in my life I have to be thankful for (No, thank you, I don't want to do the popular 30 days of Thankfulness.  That's fine for those that are doing it, but not my thing).  I do have so much to be thankful for.  Why is it that it's so hard to focus on the good, especially around those we care about the most?  Why is it so much harder to be patient and kind to those we love?  Oh, don't let me mislead you, I get impatient and unkind with those I don't love, too, I just hide it better.

I feel like I missed out on some important genetic makeup.  The cleaning, organizing and exercising gene. Yeah, that one. It comes so naturally for so many people, it seems. Surely I received and equally useful gene, but I'm not sure what it is.  I used to think it was empathy and kindness, but . . .(see above).  And besides, those genes are more hidden.  Everyone sees that I don't have the cleaning, organizing and exercising gene. It's obvious to everyone that knows me.

Anyway, I've been up since 6:15.  Couldn't sleep any longer.  And I've been cleaning the kitchen, and organizing my house in my head.  Now I'm sitting at the computer.  I've been kind of sick with respiratory stuff and have been going to bed early, plus we got our extra hour of sleep last night.  I think my body must have had enough rest for now.

There are my thoughts for the morning.  How do you feel today?


vintage navelgazer said...

Thanks for sharing Beth, because I often think that everyone but me has the cleaning, organizing, and exercising gene. So glad to know I'm not the only one who missed out on it, since the rest of my family seems to have received it in spades.

I find my attention drawn to those who have the qualities that I'm ashamed of lacking. So on ick days, sometimes Chuck gives me a list of things he sees in me.

In you, I see so much warmth. I see laughter and a great sense of humor, as evidenced in your writing, certainly, but also in the other ways I've seen you. And you have so many you must be doing something that contributes to their love for you. I can assure it isn't pity-love.

Have a good day, Beth.